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Thank You! {a.k.a. NOT}

I can't imagine what I would have done. . . or where I would be if I had gotten "my way." Thank You so much for NOT giving it to me!  I believe it's the reason that right now- at this moment. . . I am free! {From stress, drama. . . just FOOLISHNESS!} I've heard it a million times. "The way to make YOU laugh is to tell you my plans."  I must have been a comedian in Your eyes. As many times as I thought I knew what I was doing and what I wanted. . . I had/have to remember that You know better. I can find Your Will for me in Your love letter. So thank You for NOT giving what I thought I wanted. Thank you for keeping me! It's caused me to appreciate what I already had!  If it wasn't for Your grace- If it wasn't for your love. . . I would probably have had enough!  I've seen how easy it is for us to get caught up in our own desires. We become content with "quick fixes" instead of waiting patiently for wh

What Is This?! (March 1, 2010)

Why is it that almost every time I think I'm good and content as an independent, hardworking, SINGLE woman. . . Some guy comes and almost flips my script. I'm trying to understand the point of this. My life is random enough->but right now?! It's on a whole 'nother level. I feel so confused and frustrated. At the same time time, this is almost hilarious! It's as though the majority of the qualities I'd appreciate in a man are directly in front of me. However, they are within the one man I just can't have (and shouldn't want). I'll admit he's smooth, sweet, talented. . . attentive and considerate. I feel like he'd challenge me and cause me to step my game up. But this could only become a (close) friendship. I pride myself on being consistent. And standing firm on my standards and values. Yes- I'm open-minded but I cannot afford to compromise myself just to possibly satisfy the flesh. I hate th

Doing Me (November 2009)

Maybe I'm being selfish, but I HAVE to look out for me. Never have I tried to be mean, rude, or inconsiderate. However, I don't feel like feeling as though I'm being taken for granted. Yes- I try to be supportive of others but I don't have time to be people's "back-up." Take me or leave me but you will not play me. I'm taking the time to remember what I deserve. And I realize. . . Maybe YOU don't deserve me . So I'm releasing myself from this situation and reclaiming the power over my heart. Don't come to me because you're bored or lonely. Don't call me because everyone else is busy. If you are genuinely concerned about me or interested in what I have to say. . . feel free to let me know. I don't try to waste your time, so please do not waste mine!

Missing You (Fall 2009)

I was told, "Anger is a selfish emotion. . . It sometimes will arise when we don't get our way." So, I won't say that I'm angry but I am sad- because I didn't plan to have to write this. . . Grand-Mom: I love you and I am so grateful to have had you in my life for over 21 years. Thank you for your smile, humor. . . just all of the things that made you- YOU. I still remember your story of how determined you were to 'fly away' if your father gave you away (lol). Maybe my attitude comes from you :-p Today, I considered all of the things that I wish you could be here to experience with me. . . My graduation from college {finally}, marriage to the man who deserves me. . . the birth(s) of my child(ren). While I wish you could be here in person, I know your spirit lives on. I just pray that I will be a portion of the loving and hardworking woman that you were. I am sad that you are gone but so happy because God has taken you away from the suffer