Kara's Soft Words

"I am leaving this place now Letting go of all my fears Saying good bye to the memories I hold dear I can finally breathe again It's a new day Farewell past As I close this chapter. . . " -Damita Haddon, No Looking Back It's Time It's Time. . . For me to focus on what lies ahead. I admit that it's been a struggle but I've finally found the strength. Things happen for a reason And while  this  thing seemed blurry at first, I can see clearly now. No longer will I question "Why?" Or in this case, "Why not?" I'm tired of weighing out all of the possibilities. I can learn to forgive but unfortunately. . . I have too GOOD of a memory to forget you or what you've done. No, I won't be bitter; I'll just be more cautious. And because my  Father  is the King, I'm a princess and I KNOW that I deserve better than what I (barely) received from you. Rather than become upset about the love you never gave me, I am becoming increasing...

Before he arrives. . . I want to grow- mentally and spiritually. . . Become the woman that  You  have created me to be. I want to be the  woman  to compliment / complement her man. . . Support his dreams and let him know how proud he makes me. Please prepare me to be everything that he needs. I'm asking for You to equip me and to grant me wisdom and patience. Give me a heart to love, cherish, and  pray  for him. Allow me to show him my appreciation and to find joy in making  him  happy. Let me learn to fully support him- naturally and spiritually. Let us build and encourage one another. Assure me that he will never hurt me, but rather, will offer his protection/ security. I will cherish and respect him. . . and praise You for allowing me to meet my "King."

Will there be one? One man who is tired of childish ways and wants to  sincerely  pursue a relationship. A man who isn't trying to spit game, but wants to win my affection. What about that man who doesn't look for ego boosts because he walks in confidence [not arrogance]? Will he be the one who will also encourage and inspire me to live out my dreams? This  same  man will be the one who has prayed for me- asking God to prepare him to be everything that I need. Not only that. . . He will be sure that God has placed us together. Will there be one who lets me know that he finds joy in making me happy? And that he's concerned about my natural and spiritual well-being. Could this be  he ; in whom I feel secure [physically, spiritually, financially. . .]? Can I know- without a doubt that he will never hurt or harm me? He will be the one to cherish and respect me. . . Even praise God for me and treat me like a queen.

This week, I've really been thinking about how REAL God has been/ is in my life.  I've been telling people that in the last few months, I've just felt extremely  blessed.  At first, I wondered, "Have I done anything special to deserve this?  What's the meaning behind this?"  LOL.  After a while, I came across a scripture that I've heard for a long time. . . " Delight thyself also in the Lord; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.  -Psalm 37: 4-5" It was as though a light bulb came on and everything made sense.  I truly am striving to live holy and please God!  That's not to say that I'm  so special or important, but I believe that God has honored that.  It's funny to think of how people come to me and say, "You're always smiling!"  I can truly say that it is because of GOD!  The joy of the Lord is my strength--> so why s...

Never leave you lonely. Always by your side- He cares for you. . .  Wipe your tears away.  Mend your broken heart today.  Who can love you more???   He can love you more.     - Lisa McClendon, Who Can Love You More The Learning/ Loving Experience- Part 3 I chose to believe. . . that after pain, would come joy. I believed that after disappointment and shame, happiness and confidence would make their presence known. I knew that if I had an open mind, I could gain a better understanding. . . develop a deeper appreciation. You have no idea how grateful I am that we are able to talk so openly.  Otherwise, I might have gone on- holding a grudge that didn't make any sense. I remember someone asking me whether or not you amaze me and I can say that it's not only that. . . You INSPIRE me. I'm glad that I never believed "all guys were exactly the same," but I waited for the one that would prove to be different. So today, I stand in amazement of God's grace,...

I debated about posting these poems, but I always say that every day brings wisdom.  In the last couple years (even within the last few months), I feel like I've grown and learned A LOT!  And I know that it's sometimes helpful for people talk about what they've been through- so they can encourage someone else. So, I hope someone is encouraged by this. (Part 1)   Shame on Me  So maybe it's that I give people too much credit. Or maybe he really made me believe that things were different. He had me thinking that he was really into me- that he cared. I could understand that he and I were on two different pages, but he could have said something [sooner]. . . rather than having me sit and have to put two-and-two together. I should have been more careful and stayed focused. "Fool me once, shame on you." But since I've been fooled a few times, I feel ashamed. I just don't know what to say. When will it sink in? That just because a guy can talk a good game, it ...